I will be your God throughout your lifetime—until your hair is white with age. I made you, and I will care for you. I will carry you along and save you. Isaiah 46:4 (NLT)
Yesterday, I turned another year older. One year away from a new decade, I’m feeling equally terrified and grateful. Every day, I fight for my faith. Years ago, I could immediately accept that God was in control, and every experience with Him renewed my passion for His plan. Regrettably, age has been met with new fears. Through disappointment, I’ve developed a reluctant hesitation. In spite of the infinite evidence of God’s grace, I still fight earthy demands.
A little life depends on me and a man looks to me as a help-meet. I want to be everything they need, and I’m discovering that I can’t be that woman on my own. Life gets overwhelming. In the past, trusting God was so simple because, I now realize, I didn’t think I needed Him. He was there, but my challenges seemed within my abilities. Now, being a wife and a mother is new territory. I’ve had to learn day by day. I’ve pleaded with God to give me the knowledge to be who I need to be for these precious people. I no longer feel I can handle things on my own.
My life requires me to drop to my knees in front of God each day, and ask Him to fill the gaps. It requires me to embrace humility and let God bring me to a place of fullness. God’s still the Father of my youth; I just have to remember that I’m His child. Even as I age, He’s the same. He’s still maturing me. I may be an adult here on this earth but, to God, I’m a daughter who still needs her Dad.
Lord, help me to always remember that I’m your daughter. When the expectations of life begin to overwhelm, pull me back to You. Give me your peace and the knowledge I need to fulfill Your plan. Amen.
How has your relationship with God changed in this decade of your life? When was your relationship with God the most fulfilling and secure? If not now, what has changed?
Kendra is a wife, mother of one, and a reader of any book placed in her hands. Growing up as a preacher’s kid, she never thought she would follow that path. Twenty years and one Master of Arts degree in Theological Studies later, she’s accepted and embraced that God has bigger and better plans. As Kendra transitioned from full-time career to stay-at-home mom, God rekindled a love of writing that has renewed a drive and purpose for which she was desperately searching. In her writings, she hopes to encourage all of those who feel like they have no idea what they are doing.