"Now may the God of peace who brought again from the dead our Lord Jesus, the great shepherd of the sheep, by the blood of the eternal covenant, equip you with everything good that you may do his will, working in us that which is pleasing in his sight, through Jesus Christ, to whom be glory forever and ever. Amen." Hebrews 13:20-21
You're too anxious, too emotional. You've failed too many times, and it seems pride is always sneaking its way into your motives. Yet, dreams of glorifying God with your life in various ways reside in the back of your heart. And in the front of it screams this truth: you are unqualified. So am I, along with everyone on this Earth.
Whatever God has called you to (motherhood, marriage, college, writing, etc), you are not able in and of yourself to accomplish the task with a heart that glorifies God. And yet, God uses you and me in spite of ourselves. He equips the unqualified sinner, by the power of the Holy Spirit, to bring Him the glory He deserves.
Our motives shift like the weather here in Ohio, and we must correct them quickly when they go astray. But our shortcomings don't disqualify us from doing the Kingdom work God has planned for us. If they did, each of us would be paralyzed under the weight of perfection. Instead, we remember we are clothed in the righteousness of Christ, and because of this, we can know that God will equip us for the work he has for us. Because truly, it has nothing to do with us and everything to do with Christ in us.
Lord, we are so undeserving of being used to build Your Kingdom. I often can't fathom this gift in my own life. Please grow us in humility, and help our hearts to be right before You. Please give us strength by the power of the Holy Spirit to accomplish the good works set before us. May our lives glorify You and point others to Christ. In Jesus' name, Amen.
Do you feel unable to do what God has called you to? If so, maybe you have been relying on your own strength. Turn from your pride and pray that God would empower you with His strength.