“My God, my God, why have you forsaken me? Why are you so far from saving me, from the words of my groaning? O my God, I cry by day, but you do not answer, and by night, but I find no rest.” Psalm 22:1-2 ESV
I wasn’t supposed to be able to get pregnant. I was supposed to have years of infertility with no promise of ever having children of my own. In fact, I remember dating my now husband and asking him, “Are you okay with the fact that I might not be able to carry our own children some day?” Fear and negativity ruled the back of my mind, and expectations of struggling for years and years filled my every being.
Infertility was beginning to become my normal; I was beginning to accept what the doctors had told me for so many years. And now, here I am: not only pregnant, but carrying a healthy, lively baby. Most days I wake up astounded that God would entrust me with such a blessing. And as a first-time mom, it can be quite grueling knowing my world no longer revolves around my selfish desires but rather around something that is bigger than myself...something only God can orchestrate.
Ladies, I know for some of you this is your prayer as it was mine. Your longing for motherhood is valid. Although very few things can bring comfort, we can look to Scripture and see even in some of the most gut-wrenching Psalms in the Bible, David cries out to God with stunning grief and honesty, like in Psalms 22.
Dear sister, childlessness does not define you…the blood of Jesus Christ does. He has forever redeemed even the most heart-wrenching things on this Earth, and He is coming back one day in full glory. Even if your womb remains forever empty, your heart can remain forever full. At your most heart-wrenching hour, place your faith and hope in the fact that God knows your pain…He sent His son to be your eternal redemption.
Father, thank You for knowing my pain and my struggles. I know You hear my prayers. Help me to trust that Your plan is always better than my own. Help me to rest in Christ and what He has done for me, paying the ultimate penalty for my sins. My hope is in Your son, God. Amen.
Do you long to be a mother? Know God hears your desires and cares about you. Reflect on Luke 21:28.