“For you have been my help, and in the shadow of your wings I will sing for joy. My soul clings to you; your right hand upholds me.” Psalm 63:7-8 ESV
I was 15 years old whenever I was first exposed to dating violence. For those of you who don’t know what that means, dating violence can be described as behavior that is controlling, aggressive, and abusive. It can be physical, emotional, verbal, or sexual. Although this awful relationship occurred nearly 8 years ago, I cannot deny the effects of it are still something I find myself having to actively cope with. The lies that were ingrained in my mind, the fear from being physically harmed, and the emotional chaos sometimes will surface in the most peculiar of times. Sometimes I will get angry at God for allowing this to happen to me; other times I sink into an apprehensive state of mind wondering if I’ll ever be fixed. Despite all the emotions that fuel my anxieties, Jesus has shown me that it is Him alone that pulls me from the pit of my despair.
My dear sisters, the Gospel of Jesus Christ has not only healed me from past abuse, it has freed me. The Scriptures tell us that our identity is in Christ; we are not defined by the sins someone has committed against us (2 Corinthians 5:17). We are also shown the goodness and faithfulness of a sovereign God who remains forever unmoved (Psalm 100:5). Instead of letting our fears and brokenness define our lives, we can trust God with our hurt and know He is shaping us to become more like Him. He is wise, holy, just, and all-powerful (Psalm 147:5, 1 Samuel 2:2, Job 42:2).
When I look at the sin and destruction this world offers, it can be overwhelming. When I embrace the Gospel and look to Jesus, I am overwhelmed with the immense grace He gives me, knowing I don’t deserve an ounce of it. I know my pain may never fully leave me in this life, but I know Christ is here to stay. His joy, His peace, and His love are what sustains me through the gut-wrenching hurt I’ve experienced. He embraces us with an everlasting love that provides us with eternal healing. Rest in this truth, sisters!
Dear Heavenly Father, thank You for Your goodness and mercy. I petition for the healing of my broken spirit. I ask that You might reveal Yourself through the hurt and pain I experience in this life. Give me eyes to see things through the lenses of Scripture as I cling to the Truth the Gospel preaches to me. Thank You for loving me, and thank You for promising to be there with me through the many trials. Blessed be Your precious name. Amen.
Are you letting past abuse define your life today? Take refuge in the Gospel and know that you are loved beyond measure by a God who will carry your burden for you (Psalm 55:22).