When the Only Prayer We Have Is Tears
“Turn, Lord! Rescue me; save me because of your faithful love. For there is no remembrance of you in death; who can thank you in Sheol? I am weary from my groaning; with my tears I dampen my bed and drench my couch every night. My eyes are swollen from grief; they grow old because of all my enemies.” Psalm 6:4-7
Has your sorrow ever felt so deep you could feel it in your bones? Your grief so strong you actually felt weary from crying? Like the Psalmist, maybe you soak your bed with tears each night, and your eyes are swollen from sobbing. Friend, such sadness is not foreign to believers, and anyone who tells you otherwise has not spent much time in the Psalms.
Feeling the weight of sadness, whether it has cause or not, is never a reason to feel shame. Rather, we can take hope that as believers God sees our tears. David wrote that God holds our tears in bottles (Psalm 56:8). God sees our sorrow, and he does not judge us for it—he draws near to the broken-hearted (Psalm 34:18). Sometimes, the only prayer we can speak is through tears, and that is okay.
But the beauty of our sorrow as believers is that it is never without hope. Though we may still feel the ache, we have this as our hope: Christ has redeemed us from hell, and one day he will raise us to new life, where there will be no more pain or tears.
“He will wipe away every tear from their eyes, and death shall be no more, neither shall there be mourning, nor crying, nor pain anymore, for the former things have passed away.” Revelation 21:4
As believers, we live in this beautiful reality of being able to cry with joy, because we have this as our imperishable hope. If you are overwhelmed by sadness this week, cling to this, dear friend.
God, my heart is utterly broken. Some days my only food is my tears because my grief is so strong. I feel as if I am in a pit and I will never see the sunlight again. But I know, this I know and in this I put my trust, that you are still good, and you will redeem me from this broken world and bring me into your presence where I will never feel sad again.
If you are depressed, sad, or grieved this week, I encourage you to meditate on the Psalms, reading them and praying them back to God. He hears you, and he loves you.