More often than I care to admit, I catch myself falling into the traps that the enemy of my soul sets for me. I can start the day with the very best intentions, and the most God-centered thoughts, but as soon as something goes ‘not my way’ I fall out of His arms and into the slump of the old me. I am smart enough to know that there is no coincidence that I get knocked off of my fluffy cloud of happiness. But sometimes, I get so frustrated with my flesh!
I started a journey just a bit ago that I felt God called me to run toward, and it involves fasting from something that I had more of an attachment to than I realized. Our Lord is cool like that, He recognizes the idols in our lives long before we do, and He pursues us until we submit. When I began the challenge, I felt like I was super energetic about it and hopeful of all of the wisdom I would gain in the process. And within a few days, I felt that intensity fizzle and it was replaced simultaneously with doubt and dread. I hate to admit that…but it is the truth. Instead of forging ahead with praise for my calling and praying for clarity and purpose, I wallowed. I listened to the whispers of deceit telling me that it was a pointless silly task to set and that I should just give in and allow myself some revelry. No sooner than I entertained the idea, I recognized who was whispering it. Get away from me devil.
There was nothing good in me in that moment, but immediately following, I began to declare “You are good when there’s nothing good in me.” Peace washed over me that renewed my certitude and confidence in the call that The Lord had for me in this season. It’s not meant to be easy, and it’s certainly something that the enemy recognizes as vulnerability in my heart, but that is all the more reason for me to put on the full armor of God. There is no room or time for me to be lukewarm.
No matter what we are facing, no matter what task we are involved in, we are going to face opposition. It may come from the enemy, it may come from family or friends, or it may come from that girl who looks into your eyes in the mirror. We have to always recognize our weakness, and know that He is strong enough to carry us. The key there is to be willing to run into His arms when we are frail.
Carry your radiant Light into the murkiness, it will always reign.
Romans 12:11 Never be lacking in zeal, but keep your spiritual fervor, serving the Lord.
Ephesians 6:11 Put on the full armor of God, so that you can take your stand against the devil’s schemes.
John 1:5 The light shines in the darkness, and the darkness can never extinguish it.