I've been driving today, in the car for six hours. I put in an old CD that had songs full of memories from when my husband I started dating. It's so funny to think back along those times, when we were being the best version of ourselves for each other. There are so many songs that flood my heart with flutters of the feelings I got when he looked at me or when he touched my hand. Our first kiss, and the way that I would feel completely nervous when I knew I was going to see him.

That was eight years ago, and I don't really know the last time that I got the flutters like that. But I know that I still love him, even more than I did to begin with. We've gotten so comfortable with each other, and I know at least on my part he gets the worst version of me most days. I'm ashamed to say that, but it is the truth.

Our spouses are the closest thing in human form that we have to see the way that God loves each and everyone of us. When I think about that, and I think about the way that I treat my husband sometimes, or the way that I don't treat him, it makes me even more grateful for the love God has for me.

We are human, we are not perfect and we couldn't even be if we tried, there's nothing that we can do to earn God's love, but yet He lavishes it on us daily. When I'm angry or grumpy and I give Him the tiniest little pieces of what I have left of myself, He doesn't hold it against me. He knows I'm going to be that way to begin with.

God, and my husband, know the worst parts of me, the so far from ideal or perfect parts of me, and they accept me for all that I am.

Today, I'm taking a vow to make a better effort of loving my husband, but more importantly loving my God, the way that I should. Neither of them are going to get my leftovers. When we put God first, and focus on everything that we do doing it unto him, then everything else will fall to the wayside. Our hearts and minds will be set on Him and on things above, and our natural life will become supernaturally full of love and grace, no matter the circumstantial hiccups.

Romans 15:7- "Accept one another, then, just as Christ accepted you, in order to bring praise to God."

Colossians 3:17- "And whatever you do, whether in word or deed, do it all in the name of the Lord Jesus, giving thanks to God the Father through him."


Colossians 3:2 Set your mind on the things above, not on the things that are on earth.


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About the Author :

Emilee is a Christ following wife and mother who lives in Wilmington, North Carolina. She is a former hair stylist who is committed to being used by God in whatever way He sees fit.