I'm the type that flies by the seat of her pants. I have never been a planner, I can not remember a time in my life where I have felt organized or as if I had my "ducks in a row." When you're on your own, it's not too big of a deal. You are the only one that you're truly responsible for as a single gal and if you want to decorate your floor with your mixture of clean and dirty clothes and choose to pretend that you don't have a closet or chest of drawers that is your thing. But as a married woman, and a mom, it's just not practical.
I've found myself spinning about in life lately. It's as if the daily happenings are a tornado that I am stuck in the middle of. I take it with me everywhere I go, and I leave each place dizzier than the last. At first, I thought I could handle it, after all, it's the way I've done life for as long as I can remember. But now that I've been carrying on like this for a while, I see the real problems that are arising.
On the surface, it looks to me like a messy house, a hectic schedule, a lack of routine and too little time. Delve a little deeper into the realm and see that the truth is it's confusion, laziness and the desire to please everyone.
Not long ago, I stepped out of the role as a full-time working mom and into the role of full-time mom, part-time worker. I felt in my heart that I needed to stop saying yes to everyone else all the time and start saying yes to my family instead. It was life changing. I knew that God was calling me to this and I stepped in obedience. I did just what my track record would suggest...I went at it full forced to start with, feeling incredibly fulfilled and proud of every sink of dishes I would wash (dishes are my nemesis) and every meal I prepared and cooked for my sweet husband and child. And then the novelty wore off. Instead of spending the time while my daughter napped tidying up the house and getting things prepared for dinner, I plopped myself down on the couch and cuddled up to Netflix.
These days it's not much different, though there's a lot more hurrying to get somewhere rather than staying at home. I am absolutely thankful for so many of the opportunities that I have and the provisions that God has orchestrated. But I know that my priorities have gotten out of wack. Maybe you've been feeling the same way lately, not necessarily due to the same circumstances, but just out of plain busy-ness and lack of preparation.
It's time to start being intentional. Intentional: done on purpose; deliberate.
It's so simple. I've heard the word so many times, and lately it seems that I've heard it more and more in conversations with others. I just never took the time to really listen to what God was showing me.
We have to be intentional with the way we spend our days, every minute, every second, because the moments are fleeting. Getting organized and having a game plan for the way you intend to spend your day is a must. I've always thought that it was pointless to make plans because God is in control, and while He is, I think that it's foolish to think that He doesn't desire for us to have some sort of expectations. Now I'm not saying start planning out every detail of every day, but don't just go into it all lazy and think that Facebook won't eat up every bit of half of your day. I'm talking to myself here. But I'm hoping it's helping someone else too.
While our days are numbered, and The Lord has a plan, we also need to set goals for what we hope for our future to look like. And it doesn't matter if you're young or old, you can still have a dream.
Don't just bump along each day waiting for something to change. Make the change, and watch as God perfects it.