With the New Year approaching, everyone is making their list of resolutions and all the ways that they are going to change their lives. I am not saying that this is a bad thing, but many times these attempts to transform our lives are temporal. We forget that if there is not a shift in our lifestyle, we are going to be carrying the same issues of 2014 into 2015. I have experienced this many times because I am still hanging onto the past, but most importantly, I did not truly understand what it meant to live by the Spirit.
Sometimes there are issues that we believe will be carried on for a lifetime. We struggle constantly and learn to live with it because we have given up on ourselves. I will admit that I have given up on myself many times before. There is one part of me that knows and trusts that God will take care of me and another side that just wants to quit. The work seems too burdensome, I feel so far behind, and the effort that needs to be made is overwhelming. We try for a bit, get close to our goal and then right before the breakthrough comes, we give up. I am definitely guilty of this. Even now, I feel myself running from the challenges ahead and yet running to them at the same time. How crazy is that? Especially considering the fact that I am still here. We are alive, breathing and it is clear at this very moment that God has a plan for our lives. We take this for granted each day. When a loved one passes away, we are sad and our hearts are broken, but I also believe it is a time of reflection, realization, and a reminder of how fragile life is. If we spend most of our time running away or chasing after things that God has not ordained, when are we actually living? I am physically, mentally, and emotionally tired of trying to find solace in things that leave my life empty and fruitless.
I have come to understand some things about myself this year, mainly within these past couple of days that I am not too proud of. I see what God is doing and how He has been blessing my life and yet I am still holding onto the past. If this was not so, then I would be able to move forward and readily walk the path of freedom that God has laid out before me. However, as soon as I see that I have gotten pretty far in my journey, I look back and grab hold of something that keeps me right in the middle of it all. My life then becomes a tug of war.
I spend most of my days encouraging, advising, and counseling others, inspiring them to push through the difficulties of life. The only reason that I can do this is because I am traveling the same road and learning as I go. None of us are ever in a place or position where we can look down upon others because we are all in need of a Savior, no matter where we are in life. We have to learn how to forgive and move on. Otherwise, we will spend our lives blaming others for things that no longer have to be a part of who we are in Christ.
I pray that in this New Year, we would all walk by the Spirit and allow God to change and transform our lives through His Son Jesus. There is no other way
In 2015, I pray that your life will be much more than a regimen, resolution, diet, or workout plan but rather a process of change, transformation and a renewing of the mind.
I appeal to you therefore, brothers, by the mercies of God to present your bodies as a living sacrifice, holy and acceptable to God, which is your spiritual worship. Do not be conformed to this world, but be transformed by the renewal of your mind, that by testing you may discern what is the will of God, what is good and acceptable and perfect. (Romans 12:1-2, ESV)